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You’re Allowed to Be a Hot Mess.

He overturned the tables of the money-changers and the benches of those selling doves.

– Mark 21:12

Did you know that Jesus overturned tables? Yep, thatā€™s right. The Almighty God, in all of His splendor and glory and perfectionā€¦ overturned freaking tables! He walked into the temple courts of Jerusalem, was so angered by the blatant disrespect against His house of prayer and lost His God-fearing, holy mind. The Bible even states that He ā€œdrove out all who were buying and selling thereā€ (Matthew 21:12 NIV). Can you imagine being a face in the crowd watching this man who claimed to be the Messiah in the flesh, physically chase people out of the temple, as Heā€™s running around knocking over tables?! I picture His voice raised in righteous anger, yelling so fiercely that Heā€™s red in the face as He literally chases people out! Hands waving, sandals flying off, his holy attire a mess! Can you imagine the confusion and bewilderment on the faces of those who were seated at those now overturned tables?! The thoughts running through the shoppersā€™ minds, as they had no idea that their harmless day of thrifting would end with a crazy, screaming man hounding them out of the temple! 

I grew up in the church, heard every popular Bible story told a million times over until my ears hurt, and yet I had no idea, until just recently, that Jesus got angry enough to overturn tables. Sister, does this blow your mind as much as it blows mine?! As an Enneagram 8, this might just be my new favorite Bible story!

The onlookers probably looked at Jesus like He was crazy, and Iā€™m sure many thought He was certifiably insane. No one could fathom the righteous anger that coursed through the Messiahā€™s veins that day. Not an anger that can be measured by human or societal standards, but a fit of anger brought forth from Heaven in the form of overturning tables and driving people out, in order to preserve the sacred purpose of His holy temple. Anger, I believe, fueled by a love so deep that it made Him physically hurt because His people were completely missing the point, and He ached to get them to see the importance of His holy place of prayer. They had tainted its purpose and beauty with their own worldly desires and laziness. Hence, the thrashing of the hands as He drove out the masses and the knocking over of tables! 

I challenge you to not miss the grace littered all over this story because youā€™re distracted by the mess. The crowd watching Him only saw the chaos of this man named Jesus, but they failed to see the beauty He was uncovering in the face of the mayhem He was creating. 

Sis, sometimes we have to enter into our mess in order to let Jesus bring out the beauty within. Itā€™s ok to admit that youā€™re a hot, messy disaster who has absolutely no idea what sheā€™s doing or how sheā€™s going to make it to the next chapter of life. Itā€™s ok to acknowledge that you donā€™t, in fact, have it all together. Itā€™s ok to admit that you have insecurities and wounds that fester and dreams that you ache to chase but donā€™t know how. Itā€™s ok that you feel stuck and sad, or bored and unmoving and plagued with uncertainty. Itā€™s ok to be scared, itā€™s ok to get angry and itā€™s ok to be imperfect. 

Do you know what I think made Jesus the most upset? The one thing that worked Him up enough to overturn those darn tables? His peopleā€™s blindness to their brokenness. They would rather sell, trade and barter their way through the temple than take time out of their day to enter into prayerful surrender with their Heavenly Father. They refused to pay attention to their mess, so in turn, He created a physical illustration of what the insides of their hearts probably looked like. To me, the best part of this story is that He didnā€™t just create the mess, he restored the temple to itā€™s true and holy purpose. 

Just like Jesus had to wreak havoc in the temple in order to restore its magnificent purpose, you have got to be brave enough to bare your broken soul in humble surrender to the Creator and trust that He will bring beauty from your ashes. He doesnā€™t call us to look at our messes to condemn or shame us. He calls us to our mess to restore us! He draws us to sit with Him in the middle of the storm of chaos within so He can begin to make us whole again. There is no redemption without the laying down of our pride and the acceptance of His wildly unconditional grace. 

Jesus cleansed the temple in Jerusalem in order to restore it to itā€™s true and proper purpose – to bring forth itā€™s authentic identity. The heart of the Father toward you longs to make you whole; to restore you to Him so you can walk in humble confidence in your true, authentic identity as a Daughter of the King. He sees your mess and isnā€™t disgusted or intimidated or ashamed of you. His heart breaks for you because He sees your potentialā€¦ He sees the purpose for which He has created you and He desperately wants you to taste the freedom He offers and live out your calling with Him. 

So, Sister Friend, sit down in your mess and face it with bravery, knowing that Jesus sits with you and longs to restore you.